I know you are feeling sad, angry, ashamed, lost, alone, unloved, uncared for, unappreciated, abandoned, rejected, and a million other bad things. I see it in your eyes and in your tears; in what you say and in what you don't say. I know you wonder if this pain will ever go away, if you can ever forget it, push it down deep enough that you never see or feel it again, but suddenly, when you least expect it, it bursts forth like a volcano...bubbling over, memories crashing down around you, again...Beloved, as you are strengthened by the Holy Spirit, and as you begin to see Him faithful in meeting you in each of those painful memories, you will feel those chains begin to fall off. You have begun a very important journey that so very few Christians know to travel: Putting on the Armor, and marching into those places where pain and lies reside, and bringing each and every one of those lies to the foot of the cross for Jesus to speak TRUTH to. When the Holy Spirit speaks truth, the lies crumble. The only power satan has in a Believer's heart, is the through the lies we believe. He is the LIAR and Father of Lies; so He tries to keep us bound up and shakled by tormenting us with his relentless, button-pushing, LYING little self. BUT GOD who dwells within us is greater than any lie. We just have to be willing to "go there" and take back the ground that we, as young adults, teenagers, little children (sometimes infants) innocently gave him. We are not little chidren ANY MORE. We are strong in the Lord and in the strength of HIS might, we can take on any foe--including the father of lies. I am praying for you now and EVERY DAY, that each and every day you would have the grace and the strength to go to EACH and every painful memory in your past (one by one, week by week) until you have discovered all the lies you have believed about yourself in each one and as you lift those lies up to Jesus and ask Him his opinion, that you then receive every truth Jesus has for you in each one. Write down what HE tells you and believe HIM. It is in choosing to believe Jesus and His opinion instead of the lies, that we are set free and the chains come off...unshakled, free to dance, free to laugh, free to be. You can do this! When you know (intimately, and experiencially), know the Truth, then you will be free indeed. My love and prayers are with you forever. Be free. That is my prayer.
In the Word today, I was so amazed to look at these refernces again and ponder anew the reality of Christ IN US, our Hope of glory!! I hope you take the time to read and ponder them for yourself. You will leap with unexpected joy inside, when you do! We are looking at how God dwelt with man in the Old Testament/Covenant; and how He dwells with us now, in the new Testament/Covenant.
OLD TESTAMENT:
Exodus 19:18 Now Mount Sinai was all in smoke because the LORD descended upon it in fire; and its smoke ascended like the smoke of a furnace, and the whole mountain quaked violently.
Exodus 40:33-35 He erected the court all around the tabernacle and the altar, and hung up the veil for the gateway of the court. Thus Moses finished the work. Then the cloud covered the tent of meeting, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle Moses was not able to enter the tent of meeting because the cloud had settled on it, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle.
2 Chronicles 5:1-14 Thus all the work that Solomon performed for the house of the LORD was finished. And Solomon brought in the things that David his father had dedicated, even the silver and the gold and all the utensils, and put them in the treasuries of the house of God. Then Solomon assembled to Jerusalem the elders of Israel and all the heads of the tribes, the leaders of the fathers' households of the sons of Israel, to bring up the ark of the covenant of the LORD out of the city of David, which is Zion. All the men of Israel assembled themselves to the king at the feast, that is in the seventh month. Then all the elders of Israel came, and the Levites took up the ark. They brought up the ark and the tent of meeting and all the holy utensils which were in the tent; the Levitical priests brought them up. And King Solomon and all the congregation of Israel who were assembled with him before the ark, were sacrificing so many sheep and oxen that they could not be counted or numbered. Then the priests brought the ark of the covenant of the LORD to its place, into the inner sanctuary of the house, to the holy of holies, under the wings of the cherubim. For the cherubim spread their wings over the place of the ark, so that the cherubim made a covering over the ark and its poles.The poles were so long that the ends of the poles of the ark could be seen in front of the inner sanctuary, but they could not be seen outside; and they are there to this day. There was nothing in the ark except the two tablets which Moses put there at Horeb, where the LORD made a covenant with the sons of Israel, when they came out of Egypt. When the priests came forth from the holy place (for all the priests who were present had sanctified themselves, without regard to divisions), and all the Levitical singers, Asaph, Heman, Jeduthun, and their sons and kinsmen, clothed in fine linen, with cymbals, harps and lyres, standing east of the altar, and with them one hundred and twenty priests blowing trumpets in unison when the trumpeters and the singers were to make themselves heard with one voice to praise and to glorify the LORD, and when they lifted up their voice accompanied by trumpets and cymbals and instruments of music, and when they praised the LORD saying, "He indeed is good for His lovingkindness is everlasting," then the house, the house of the LORD, was filled with a cloud, so that the priests could not stand to minister because of the cloud, for the glory of the LORD filled the house of God.
2 Chronicles 7:1-3 Now when Solomon had finished praying, fire came down from heaven and consumed the burnt offering and the sacrifices, and the glory of the LORD filled the house. The priests could not enter into the house of the LORD because the glory of the LORD filled the LORD'S house. All the sons of Israel, seeing the fire come down and the glory of the LORD upon the house, bowed down on the pavement with their faces to the ground, and they worshiped and gave praise to the LORD, saying, "Truly He is good, truly His lovingkindness is everlasting."
God's FIRE coming down like a lightning bolt-(remembering here the dream God gave me Christmas Eve--thanks going up and simultaneously His atomic power, like lightning bolt with fire, coming down); His Shekinah Glory (visible dwelling of God-The Cloud); God's Presence among his people; in answer to prayer!
Then, the New Testament:
Matthew 1:18-25 Now the birth of Jesus Christ was as follows: when His mother Mary had been betrothed to Joseph, before they came together she was found to be with child by the Holy Spirit. And Joseph her husband, being a righteous man and not wanting to disgrace her, planned to send her away secretly. But when he had considered this, behold, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream, saying, "Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife; for the Child who has been conceived in her is of the Holy Spirit. "She will bear a Son; and you shall call His name Jesus, for He will save His people from their sins." Now all this took place to fulfill what was spoken by the Lord through the prophet: "BEHOLD, THE VIRGIN SHALL BE WITH CHILD AND SHALL BEAR A SON, AND THEY SHALL CALL HIS NAME IMMANUEL," which translated means, "GOD WITH US." And Joseph awoke from his sleep and did as the angel of the Lord commanded him, and took Mary as his wife, but kept her a virgin until she gave birth to a Son; and he called His name Jesus.
John 2:13-17 The Passover of the Jews was near, and Jesus went up to Jerusalem. And He found in the temple those who were selling oxen and sheep and doves, and the money changers seated at their tables. And He made a scourge of cords, and drove them all out of the temple, with the sheep and the oxen; and He poured out the coins of the money changers and overturned their tables; and to those who were selling the doves He said, "Take these things away; stop making My Father's house a place of business." His disciples remembered that it was written, "ZEAL FOR YOUR HOUSE WILL CONSUME ME."
John 1:12-17 But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God. And the Word became flesh, and dwelt among us, and we saw His glory, glory as of the only begotten from the Father, full of grace and truth. John *testified about Him and cried out, saying, "This was He of whom I said, 'He who comes after me has a higher rank than I, for He existed before me.'" For of His fullness we have all received, and grace upon grace. For the Law was given through Moses; grace and truth were realized through Jesus Christ.
Jesus is Immanuel, Word of God, made flesh, and who Tabernacled among us. We beheld His Glory; like Father, Like Son. God dwelling with us in the Divine tabernacle of His Body; revealed the fullness of God. He explained the Father. Jesus, in us, is God, The Cloud, The Glory, The Shekinah Glory, dwelling within us! We are His Temple; His Cloud, His fire, is in us! Oh God, help us to comprehend this awesomeness! Help us to behold and sense This Power, and to live as though YOU dwell and Tabernacle within us! Oh LORD, allow us to behold your Manifest Presence and visibly see you, even as Israel saw you in Exodus, on the Mountain of God, and in the Temple. LORD let us visibly see you and feel your power within. May we glorify you in these temples of flesh and KNOW what a treasure we contain in these "arks of flesh", containers of the Living God! What a mystery...what a privelege...what a responsibility! Amen.