LET MY WORDS BE FEW

Well, as some of your know, I love Cadbury Creme Eggs. I only buy them at Easter time, because, well, that is the only time the stores carry them. Lately, they are carrying them earlier and earlier in the season. Some of you know my recent, humbling experience with the eggs. About 2 months ago I bought 6 of the little sweet things and put them in my freezer. First of all, why are they carrying Easter eggs in January???? Anyway, by the 3rd day, all of them were gone except for one or two. I can't remember the number--that doesn't really matter, does it? I had asked a dear SP friend of mine if I should throw the last one away or keep it to practice self-control. She asked me, "Does an alcoholic keep wine in the house to practice self-control or "just in case"?" I thought to myself, hummm, in MY case, I would keep it around "just in case". YUCK!!!! What a revelation. I got so disgusted with myself for eating so many in such a short period of time, AND knowing that I really wanted to keep that last one around "just in case", that I threw the remainder in the garbage with a fury. I said, "THERE! You go to the trash". I thought I had seen the last of that CCE. BUT, by the end of the night, (remember I am humbling myself here), I couldn't stand it and dug out the grocery bag which the last CCE was tied up in, from the trash and ATE IT. Yes, I did that. I really did that. I can't believe I am telling you my dirty laundry. I pulled the thing out of the trash and ate it. Confession is good for the soul. I learned a LOT about myself that night. I learned that I am definitely not perfect. I learned that all or nothing is not always a good thing. I learned that anything that controls ME is not in my best interest. Soon after this, in February, I had a word from God to me. It was simple but He said, "LOVE IS THE HAND THAT FEEDS YOU". I am not sure why this was so profound to me but it was. Since January, I have passed by the Cadbury Creme Eggs many, many times at the grocery store and said "NO, thank you". It has been relatively easy to do so. I know this is the grace of God. Today, March 21, 2011, I was in HEB food store shopping. I passed down the aisle with the Easter candy, BOLDLY on display. There in flashing NEON lights was the CADBURY CREME EGGS! I glanced in their direction and acknowledged their presence. Then, something rose up within me that very resolutely said, "If God wants me to have a Cadbury Creme Egg, HE will bring me a Cadbury Creme Egg", and I walked past those babies without a second thought. Tonight, just before my group of ladies arrived at my house for Discipleship class, a friend of mine rang the doorbell. It was her and her daughter Samantha with a gift. Her daughter said they had just been shopping at the drugstore and spotted some miniature Cadbury Creme Eggs in a carton. Samantha told her mom, "Hey mom! Ms. Leeanna loves Cadbury Creme Eggs, let's get her some". So they did. And then, Samantha said, "Hey mom, Ms. Leeanna lives just a couple of blocks away, let's go give them to her now!" So, they did. Samantha did not know the story I have just shared with you. She had no idea that I had just two hours before said "If God wants me to have a CCE He will bring me a CCE." I have walked 30 years with God, as of this year. I am still in awe of His many ways of showing me His loveingkindnesses. I am shocked and awed at the way He provided me with the desire of my heart tonight. I am going to bed with a thankful heart and a new appreciation for the "Hand that feeds me". It was worth waiting for, my friends!